Well I have an appt with my doc in three days…

[The450Man]

A recap:

Urine test for dheas:

1200ml total

DHEA Urine: 58 scaled o 32-3710
DHEA, Urine 25-1640

very low in my book but ive been toled DHEA is a crap test sad.gif

6/25

Free T3 4.4 (2.1-4.2)
Free T4 1.6 (.8-1.8)
6/4/09

Testosterone, Total 670 250-1100 ng/dL
Testosterone, Free 101.1 46.0-224.0 pg/mL
Testosterone, Bioavailable 221.0 110.0-575.0 ng/dL
SEX HORMONE BINDING GLOBULIN 30 7-49 nmol/L
ALBUMIN 4.8 3.6-5.1 g/dL
ESTRONE, SERUM 144 < OR = 68- PG/ML
Estriol low .10 .2>

5/18/09

Estradiol, Free 0.47 < OR = 0.45- PG/ML
Estradiol, % Free 2.33 1.25-1.85 %
Estradiol 20 < OR = 29- PG/ML
T3 Reverse 25 11-32 ng/dL
Free T4 1.3 0.8-1.8 NG/DL
TSH (Third Generation) 2.36 0.40-4.50 mU/L
Progesterone 1.1 <1.4- NG/ML
Prolactin 11.9 2.0-18.0 NG/ML
Testosterone 602 241-827 NG/DL
Cortisol 17.7 3.0-17.0 MCG/DL
Follicle Stim.Hormone(FSH) 3.9 1.6-8.0 MIU/ML
Luteinizing Hormone(LH) 8.9 1.5-9.3 MIU/ML
Pregnenolone 133 13-208 NG/DL

2/10/2009
ESTROGENS, TOTAL 99 130 OR LESS (ADULT)- PG/ML

12/23/08
TSH (Third Generation) 1.34 0.50-4.30 mU/L
ESTROGENS, TOTAL 198 130 OR LESS (ADULT)- PG/ML (bad test?)
Testosterone 657 241-827 NG/DL

7/26/07
TSH (Third Generation) 0.80 0.70-6.40 mU/L

(dont have many resoursces left for more tests)

History: As a kid i had ocd, went to consulting and was put through GBT. Worked great. I then hit a depression spell and was put on prozac then lexapro. Depression seemed to fayed away with the replacement of anxiety. 11th and 12th grade were hell. Missed many days of school because of it. Also was very tired. I could not stay away no matter what. come 11 oclock i was a zombie and had to sleep. Ive had books, thrown at me, to wake up. I just shrugged it off and kept on sleeping. Infact felt like i was tired 24 7 and could sleep all the time. I started to experiment with drugs, mostly salvia divinorum… I had no anxiety when i was tripping…. if i could chose to id trip 24/7…. But stopped by salvia binge after two months of use. In the last year of highschool i noticed a major increase of nausea, not in my stomach, but in my throat, like something was stuck there. Urge to dry heave and vomit was intense and did so on many occasions. Right before graduation anxiety hit in full force. even ended up in the er. Gave me some vistaril.. might as well of given me a sugar pill. and sent me home. I refused to go to the last two weeks of school. Panic attacks out the ass. On the floor, sweating in a 40 degree room dry heaving, shaking and throwing up. My doc decided to give me klonopin. Miracle drug, must say it save my life. I took .25-.5 daily for a few months while on trazadone and effexor. Summer was a good time. Anxiety was managable, but had intense nausea, not in my stomach but back in my throat, like something was stuck there. I went through a quarter of college and crashed. Panic attacs, dry heaves, all the works. I then dropped out of college and am not taking online classes.

I do not want to go back on ssri’s. I felt emotionally numb and diddnt care much about things. Someone could die in my family and i probably would not shed a tear. Plus every drug ive been on through highschool killed my man jewels. Needless to say im a virgin… Even had an instance when a girl went to go down on me. I was limp, she looks up and says, your not hard?… try explaining your way out of that one..

Im on:

15 mg of remeron. Figured it would help with sleep, nausea, and increase my appetite. I went from a lean 155 to 118, (im 5’7).

Im also taking .25 of trazadone to get me to sleep at night. Anxiety is still near unbearable. Im agoraphobic, nasuea is extreamly intense, no i dont go out to eat. Last time i tried that i ran out and lost my food in the parking lot. I got off of benzos a few months back. I now take them sporadically. When i do they are in high doses just to get me to go out and be with friends. Took 3mg of klonopin today and diddnt feel much. Main effect was is my brain is dead, explainging my poorly written post…. I figured i would of lost some tollerence to the klonopin.. or thats just nature, but mehh.

Anyways, been on:

Prozac
Effexor
Lexapro
Abilify
gabapentin for anxiety- up to 1800mg and had a headache

On:

Remeron 15mg, did bump up to 30 but was in panic attacks so dropped down
trazadon .25mg

Im thinking more 5ht1a stimulation will do me good..Buspar is an idea, but it has some dopamine blocking effects… something im not after. Possibly a 5ht3 antagonist like zofran to help with the nausea plus 5ht3 activation likes to stimulate things…. Oh and its going to be embarasing as can be but im gona ask the doc for a viagra script, cant seem to get a few off of anybody, even with bribes

anyways, just looking for some ideas here so i dont drive my self insane looking through all the possibilities.

I like what im on now… Just dosnt seem to help me throughout the day…

Maybe a better benzo?? something that hits the Gaba alpha 2 receptor pretty good.. or is that something of the future?

I am thinking of replacing trazadone with cyproheptadine because trazadone active metablolite is a 5ht2c antagonist and good for sleep and weight gain.

Maybe toss in a low does ssri and hope my blockade of 5ht2c repceptors prevents sexual disfunction??

[The450Man]

misstype and cant edit for some reason… I was 118 but gained some lbs from remeron up to 140. Still would like to be 150-160

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